A New About Me (Updated)
After taking about a 6 month break (and then another break) from blogging, I am back. I have way too many thoughts floating around in my overactive mind to not write them down. Below this, is the About Me I had for when I started my blog. I decided to write a new About Me, because a lot of things are different now. I’ve changed a lot.
I’m a Senior at Penn State majoring in Biology. I graduated in May. I used to live the stereotypical college life and I was quite successful at it. I partied three nights of the week, had a great time and still managed to make straight As. I wasn’t satisfied though and I’m giving that life up. I’ve lost a few friends because of this decision, but I guess that shows they weren’t real friends to begin with.
I know there is something more out there. I can’t be satisfied by the normal, because I’m not normal. I’m a genius. I graduated high school at the age of 16. I was published as an author in a scientific paper at the age of 17. Accepted into a competitive clinical research internship program at the Children’s Hospital of Philadelphia with a >5% acceptance rate at 18. And in May, I obtained my Bachelor’s of Science at the ripe age of 19. Now I’m 20 and applying to medical school.
God may have blessed me with an intelligent mind, but I have still been through a lot. I was in a 4 year relationship that was abusive in every form of the term (psychological, emotional and physical). My ex, who I refer to in this blog as “P”, was sexually sadistic and at one point he raped me. My mind has become a dark and torturous place, but I do my best to shine what light I can on it. I write to heal, and maybe to show others that they can heal as well.
This new part of my blog is me fighting for the future, my future. I’m trying to figure out my life and what I’m going to do with it. I want to really make a difference. There is so much pain in this world. I feel driven to be a healer and a helper. That is my place here. I just have to figure out what I’m going to do with it.
I’m trying to make my life orange.
The old About Me:
Hello all! I’m a Junior at Penn State, majoring in Biology. I’m training to be an EMT and I hope to go to medical school when I graduate. My absolute favorite color is orange, which is the inspiration for the name of this blog. I would be the happiest person in the world if everything were orange which is why “Make Life Orange” is my motto. To me, it means to strive to be the happiest I can be.
I started this blog to help me handle my break up with my boyfriend of four years, P. The relationship was abusive and he pretty brutally raped me at one point. I needed an outlet for all of the pain and trauma that experience has caused me which is why I started to write. It is really helping me work through the emotional scars he left on me. I do try to be cheerful and keep a positive outlook though. If you’d like to know more about why I began this then read the post “The Start”. Otherwise, read, comment, follow and enjoy!