Well life has been a little hectic since I started school again on Monday which is why I haven’t posted in a while. I really was not at all excited to start this last semester. Normally I’m ready for new classes and new activities, but this time I just was not feeling it. I’m having a really hard time getting back into the swing of things. I think it’s because we only had a 2 week winter break which is extremely short. I’m also taking a lot of classes that I just need to graduate and I’m not really interested in so I’ve been feeling quite apathetic.
Long story short it was a rough week. The only good thing that happened was S rekindling our friendship. It’s finally feeling normal again now that she’s broken up with Bryan. Anyways, on Monday I found out that I didn’t get into Teach for America. I had a bit of a hard time handling it since I’m not really used to rejection (well, rejection in my professional life). So now I need to figure out what I’m going to do once I graduate and I’m having a really hard time. I’m saddled with a lot of debt which doesn’t really give me many options. I’m also 19 and have absolutely no idea what I want out of life. So if anyone out there has any thoughts please let me know. I’m at a loss.
I also got my infertility test results. All my hormone levels are normal which was unexpected and extremely frustrating. They still have no idea what’s up and I can’t really do anything while I’m at school because my health insurance doesn’t cover anywhere in State College. The only issue they know I have is borderline high cholesterol (214). This makes me furious. My doctor chided me and lectured me on eating healthy and exercising. I am the healthiest eater I know. I only eat whole grains. I eat organic. I eat two servings of fruit and three servings of vegetables each day. I only eat chicken and turkey and I also don’t consume anything that has corn syrup or hydrogenated oils. AND I work out 4-6 times a week. Yet I’m the college student with high cholesterol. Not. Fair.
Well that’s all the important stuff for now. I’ll try and start writing more soon. I just need to get adjusted to this semester…and figure out my life.