Dear future potential mates,
Hello, my name is Sam. Some of you probably think you know me by now, others are just beginning that process. However, you all have one thing in common. You are interested in me for one reason or another. I don’t know why, but you are. Maybe it’s my personality or maybe it’s simply the fact that I’m thin and blonde. It doesn’t matter. If you’re reading this it means I have deemed you good enough to be allowed into my life. That in itself is not an easy task. I’m not pretentious. I’m just cautious. I’m writing this, because there are some things you need to know about me. They’re important, and they’re going to help you understand why I am the way that I am.
I am different from a lot of other girls. My needs are not the same. My fears and insecurities are also probably not what you would originally expect. On the outside, I probably just seem like another neurotic women who over analyzes and worries far too much. However, that is not me. I don’t need you to prop me up. I don’t need you to boost my self esteem. I love myself, mind and body. I’m not worried that you aren’t going to like my personality or find me unattractive. If you don’t, that’s your loss not mine. I’m also not afraid of being alone. You aren’t going to catch me clinging to you just because I don’t want to be on my own. I embrace my independence. Perhaps a little too much.
If you’ve been allowed to read this, I like you. I think you’re somebody I could enjoy spending time with. I’m going to give you a road map, directions, a guide. I already know the issues I’m going to have with this. It’s only fair that you know them too. I’m not saying you’ve done anything wrong or you are going to do something wrong. I’m simply preparing you. Why? Because this isn’t easy for me. It’s extremely difficult. Again, it has nothing to do with you and everything to do with my past. I strive very hard not to let it get in the way of my present. However, I cannot deny the fact that it has changed me. I’m not going to tell you about that here. However, if you ask me a question I will answer it. I’m very open in that way. I won’t hide anything from you if you simply ask.
Okay so if you’ve read down to here it means you actually care about this. I guess that’s good since this is the most important part. The list of things I’ll need from you:
- I need you to plan ahead. Spontaneity with certain things (like sex…) is perfectly fine. However, if you just pop up randomly and want to see me I’m not going to be happy. I want to know ahead of time when you want to hang out. It will help me relax if I’m not always wondering when you’re going to ask.
- Do not pressure me in bed. For anything. Ever. You can ask nicely. I know we all have needs and that’s fine. I like to make my partner happy in bed. However, please do not ever make me feel like I have to do something. If you do, it will probably be the last time you see me.
- Help me feel comfortable when I’m with you. I’m going to be afraid of making you mad. I’m going to be afraid of breaking some unspoken rule of yours. And I’m going to be waiting for you to snap on me. It’s something that will naturally go away with time, but you could help with it if you wanted. You could definitely make it easier.
- Be honest. Don’t ever lie. I’ll never trust you again.
That’s it. Short and sweet. I’m not just going to make demands, and not give anything in return. I can help too with most anything you need. I’m pretty flexible, and I understand the give and take that is required in human being interactions. So if you already figured all that out, good for you. Otherwise, I hope that helped a little.
Thanks for reading,
*Follow me on Twitter @MakeLifeOrange