Well G is perfect. I cannot find one flaw. I cannot find one thing I do not like about him. He is the nicest guy that I have ever met. The only problem I have is that he is graduating at the end of this semester.
Last night we had a conversation about sex. I admitted that I was an extremely horny person, but I was nervous because I hadn’t started with anyone new in over two years. He was completely understanding. He told me we could wait as long as I wanted or if I wanted him to go for it he would. I told him I did want him to go for it. I hung out with him for quite a long time tonight. We did have sex and it was fantastic. The best I’ve ever had. I was being shy though. Later I thanked him for being patient with me and he said, “You’re welcome. Your comfort is my main priority.”
How did I get this lucky? I’m so scared. It feels too good to be true. I keep waiting for demons to pop out. I keep waiting for him to do something mean or selfish. He never does. He tends to my every need with a huge grin on his face. He’s also smart like me. He started college when he was 17. He didn’t think it was weird at all that I was eighteen and a junior. In fact, he was happy and impressed.
I like to think there’s something out there looking out for me. Whatever higher powers there are saw that I have been through enough. They finally sent me a good guy. Granted, I am absolutely terrified. I am afraid of everything that goes along with getting involved with someone. I don’t want to be hurt again or go through the amount of pain I had to with P. But maybe G is worth that risk. Maybe he could be exactly what I need.