I read a lot of other blogs. I like to comment, because I know how good I feel when I get a comment from somebody. I also feel like it’s another way I can contribute to this site. I tend to read blogs focused on Personal life, because that’s what I write about too. But the more I read, the more worried I become. The more I realize how this world is filled with people who are hurting. For some, the pain has been inflicted by others. For others, their very own minds are working against them.
I’m a biologist. I do neuroscience research. I’m here to tell you we know so very little about how our brain functions. I’ve read posts by people that are clearly insane. I’ve also read posts by people contemplating suicide. It certainly is a dark world I dabble in. But the more I see, the more I desire to help. I have a feeling of helplessness right now, because I can do so little for these people. I try to leave kind comments. From personal experience, I know those can help turn your day around. But there’s a certain point where you just have to hope that they are capable of helping themselves. That they have the perseverance to push through it. Sadly, a lot of people don’t and a lot of people will give up.
I can understand the desire to give up when you feel as though your own brain is functioning against you. When what you want more then anything in the world is to be happy, but you just can’t achieve it. I’ve been in that place. I know how dark it is. I found a way out just with my own willpower. But I know for some people that’s not enough. So they go on antidepressants and expect them to make them feel better. But they don’t always work, because we know so little about them. It’s quite a hopeless and frustrating subject for me. I want to help. But how can we really? We don’t understand what goes on in someone else’s mind. No matter how hard they try and explain it to me, I’ll never be able to fully comprehend what they are feeling.
I feel like if I get into medical school, I’m going to end up in some sort of neuroscience/psychiatry research. I also have a lot of thoughts on drugs and addiction but I’m going to need to save those for another post. I truly do have a yearning desire to understand the brain and how it functions. Maybe, one day, I’ll be able to.